silly thoughts

the academy awards is just a few days away and to ‘celebrate’ the event, star movies is showing films that have made it to the oscars. they call it the ‘awards fever’. one film that star movies is showing is black hawk down. i’m sure everyone knows that it is based on a true story, the battle of mogadishu, in somalia. when i saw the movie on the big screen, i immediately loved it. it is probably the first war movie that i love. so every time i see it on star movies or hbo or cinemax, i always watch it. i don’t care about the time or if have a lot of school work to finish.

anyway, i really commend everyone who is part of the movie, especially ridley scott and the actors. such great direction and acting. what makes it a great movie for me is the last scene, where the delta forces have reached the UN peace zone. josh hartnett and eric bana were talking, and josh was asking eric if he was going to go back out there, noticing that eric was checking out things he could bring and putting them in his pockets. it was in that scene where eric said a very strong line, "…you know back home, they ask me, ‘why do you do it? are you some kind of war junkie?’ and i don’t answer them. you know why? coz they won’t understand. they won’t understand that it’s because of the person next to you." doesn’t that say it all? that in this world, it’s really about other people and not about ourselves, that we live to serve others. if only all the people in this world would think that way, then the world will be a better place for everyone. but then again, nothing can really be perfect in this world.

"only the dead have seen the end of war"–plato

last friday afternoon, i just saw the sweetest girl in starbucks. she was probably 4 or 5 years old. her dad was working on something in one corner in starbucks. her mom and her sister were also there but in a separate table. she was constantly going to her dad’s table to disturb him but it was fine with her dad. and then on her last disruption, she walked up to her dad’s table and said, "dad, i love you." and that was it, my heart really melted with this kid. and her dad was so sweet too saying, "aww…that’s so sweet. i love you too," followed by a kiss on the forehead. i’m such a sucker for fathers and daughters who are so close to each other.

lazy eye is a medical condition where one eye starts to lose its perfect vision. the condition is often left unnoticed especially when the other eye is functioning perfectly. the "perfect" eye sort of "carries" the function of the lazy eye, so one can still see perfectly when both eyes are open. because it takes time before one gets to know that he/she has a lazy eye, the lazy eye starts to lose its function and if not treated immediately, the eye can go blind eventually.

i found out i have a lazy eye when i was in my senior year in high school. and the grade of my eye back then was 150 or 200, if i remember it correctly. i had to wear glasses during the first year of my condition. my doctor didn’t allow me to wear contact lens, because i have astigmatism also, and it will be difficult to wear contact lens immediately, in just one eye. if i want to wear contact lens, i would have to wear the type that has a weight on it so it would go back to its original position to treat my astigmatism (because everytime you blink, the contact lens moves and astigmatism has to be treated in one plane. anyway, i’m no eye doctor here. haha.).

i would say my vision has improved since then. my left eye is slowly regaining its function. i can now see big things clearly (i still have a problem with not-so big things). i remember when i first had my formal check-up that even the biggest E in the thingy was so blurred. i couldn’t read a damn letter.

one difficult thing about having a lazy eye? putting on eye make-up on my own, especially eye shadow. go figure.

last sunday night was the premiere of million dollar baby on star movies. it’s a great movie but it’s one of those movies i don’t want to see again. why? because it’s such a sad movie. i remember that the beginning of the movie immediately made me cry when i saw it on the big screen. the start of the movie already sets the tone that the ending will be sad.

anyway, being a movie-lover that i am, i still watched it and cried over it. why do things suddenly turn around just when you thought everything is going well? in the case of hilary swank’s character, she was so near to a title, her career was going well, and bam! tragedy strikes, leaving her immobile and to the care of the nurses.

but then again, i think the movie very well represents a person who has dreams. to achieve those dreams, one has to be a fighter, pushing until the end, thinking that it’s everything he/she has got.

last weekend, i went with my mom to the grocery and after buying some groceries, we ate dinner. while eating dinner, i removed the elastics on my braces. my mom asked me why do i keep on removing my elastics everytime i eat. i told her i can’t enjoy the food because the elastics sort of limits the way i eat my food. and then she made a comment, ‘paganda ka ng paganda tapos ngayon magrereklamo ka.’ funny. but i’m not complaining. my mom knows i don’t really need braces because the flaws of my teeth can’t really be noticed. so everyone got surprised when i finally had it, especially my lola. if anything, my teeth are properly aligned. but why did i push to wear braces? simple. because of my OC-ness (if there’s such a term). or call it vanity. but hey, can you blame me?

when my mom made that comment, i suddenly had a "theory" about liposuction and braces. i think that people who wear braces are more inclined to say yes to a liposuction. i have nothing against liposuction but if i have to lose weight, i’d rather go on a diet or workout. but with the pain i go through with my braces, i think i can go through the pain of a liposuction.

but then again, i have no idea what kind of pain there is with liposuction. haha.