pain
last monday, i realized the pain that i don’t ever want to experience in my whole life. my hate for this pain is like my hate for colds. i’d rather cough and cough than sneeze and sneeze or sniff and sniff or blow and blow. as i was saying, i think this pain is the most unbearable pain for me. it’s a stomachache. when i had one last monday, i was shouting and whining in pain. i don’t know what happened but i was just texting a friend when i suddenly experienced the pain. when i told this to my friends, one said that having a toothache is worse. i told her that it wasn’t for me. i can bear with toothache. i had my impacted teeth removed and after the "minor surgery", i didn’t take any pain killers because there was no pain. i also had my wisdom teeth extracted. and again, i didn’t take any pain killers. there was no need. another friend said that the worst pain is heartache. again, it’s not the case with me. i believe that time heals all wounds so heartaches just come and go. but then again, a friend said that i probably haven’t experienced REALLY being heartbroken.
so how do you know if you’ve really been heartbroken? in my case, i think i’ve been heartbroken because when i watch any love story on tv, i see myself as the girl and ‘my guy’ as the guy on tv. i can see the love story on tv as similar to my ‘love story.’
i started watching ‘princess hours’ recently on abs-cbn. it’s one of the few koreanovelas i watch on tv. i really like the story. the episode tonight is when the girl was crying her heart out because her husband kept on hurting her feelings. boy, can i see myself in the story of the girl. anyway, i really don’t want to elaborate that story. it’s the past and there’s no point in going back to a bad past except to make peace with it.
***i didn’t mean to write about "sad love" after writing about "happy love" on valentine’s day. tsk tsk.
